I have no idea what I genuinely want to do, so I need to start looking at my options for next year. I know, that soon it’ll be the end of year 13 and suddenly everyone will know exactly what they’re doing and I’ll just be sitting there looking stupidly lost.

I want to go to uni because it’s another way of killing time before I technically have to start growing up properly and obviously for the party life, but I’m not sure if it’s worth the ridiculous amount of debt, stress and pressure.

So then I think ‘oh, try an apprenticeship’, which sounds good at first because i’ll be gaining some experience and it’ll be less of a financial burden, but I have no idea what part of the travel industry I would like to get into and where the apprenticeship could lead me. I don’t want to waste my time going in the complete opposite directions and end up hating my job.  

Then I think ‘go to college and study travel’ just to kill time, but I will feel like a failure if I do that because it’ll basically be repeating sixth form and most people will be younger than me, so I’ll feel ridiculous.

I hate being indecisive.

Why can’t I just have an amazing talent or something?